Taking the call

SHIT! What the hell did I do?

Elina's handphone rang.

Looking at the caller id, she didn't pick it up.

It rang again.

This time, she picked it up.

"Elina"

She kept quiet.

"Hello?"

She cleared her throat.

"Yeah, I'm here."

"Yup. Urm..well.."

"No. I just called just now.. just to.. urm.. "

Man, this is awkward!

"well.. just to say how inappropriate it was for me to act that way. I just.. I didn't know what got into me" Elina mumbled.

Silence.

For another few seconds.

"It's okay.."

Silence.

"Is there anything you want to ask?" Elina asked.

Silence. For a few seconds.

"Are you like seeing someone?"

Elina just listened to the words said by the caller.

She kept quiet, in her mind trying to arrange the words to say what her condition was now.

"It's complicated. But I really want us to try this again. I'm so sorry for just now. Start over? How does that idea sound?"

Silence again.

"Yeah. That would be great."

Elina smiled.

"I'll call you. You've had a rough night. Get some sleep, k? Take care"

"Take car..."

He hung up.

At least he agrees to starting over.

Elina then took her towel, and went to the bathroom to take a bath.

Elina-Jenny

Elina opened the door to her room. Her room mate, Jenny was watching something on her laptop with her headphones on. Then she laughed.

"Must be something funny I guess" Elina thought.

She straight away went on her bed, lying down with her face flat into her pillow, not even bothering to change her clothes. Hugged her pillow tight.

What the hell did I just do?

Why am I still feeling like shit?

She got up, sitting on the bed, took out her handphone, and stared at the screen. Then she pressed a few buttons on the keypad. Then stared again at the screen.

Suddenly she felt a tap on her shoulder.

Elina turned, and saw Jenny sitting on her bed, looking at her.

"Are you OK? Is everything alright? You look like such a mess" Jenny asked.

Elina just kept quiet.

She kept on fumbling with the buttons of the keypad of her handphone.

"You're not thinking about calling him, are you?" Jenny further questioned.

Elina just kept mum, yet again.

"Elina.......

You were the one crying to me, like 5 weeks ago.

And you started contacting that specky guy - what's his name again?

Well, whatever.

I thought you were so over him!

He has moved on.

With that very bitch!" Jenny exclaimed, furious.

She started walking away.

Elina's eyes were fixated on her handphone.

Jenny turned again. Looked at Elina.

"Still not saying anything? Fine, suit yourself. Just try to not break your heart again will ya?" Jenny said.

Then she proceeded to put on her headphones, and watch her movie on the laptop.

Elina looked at Jenny's back.

She doesn't understand.

No one will.

She looked at her handphone again.

Phonebook.

Breezed through all the names. Until she saw the one she wanted.

Dialing.

One ring.

Two rings.

"Elina?"

Elina hung up.

In KLCC

"What am I doing here?" thought Elina, while looking at the crowd around her, while she was sitting in the food court in KLCC.


Everyone seems to be having a good time, chatting, eating, laughing.


But why don't I feel the same?


I just feel like.. there's something heavy.. pressing against my chest..



"Elina? You want anything?"


She turned, facing a specky, wide-eyed guy, with a cap on his head. Clad in a simple t-shirt and jeans, he was holding a tray with a plate of spaghetti in it.


Elina just smiled but turned her head from side to side, signaling no.


The guy continued on talking, while eating the spaghetti, but somehow Elina couldn't really concentrate on what he was saying.


Her mind continued to playback what happened.


How she had a huge fight with Razan on that day.


How she took Razan's handphone and slammed it againts the wall.


How she ran all the way to the taxi stand, with Razan running after her, shouting out her name, and dozens of on-lookers staring wide-eyed at the drama unfolding in front of them.


What exactly happened that day?


What exactly did he say?


I couldn't remember. Did I even give him a chance to explain?

Who was Sarah?

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"Elina, our movie is starting in 15minutes. Shouldn't we get going?" the specky guy asked.


She smiled, took her bag, and proceeded to walk along side the specky guy.


He continued on talking about something she wasn't familiar with.


While walking towards the escalator, she saw Sushi King.


She remembered Razan, his smile, his scent, how he talked..



SHIT!

That fucking bastard is contacting another bitch for God's sake!


She felt so angry all of a sudden.



Why did he contact someone else?

Am I not good enough for him?

What did I do wrong?



Without her realising, suddenly, tears started to collect in her eyes, and her vision seemed blurry.


She seems to be walking with no sense of direction, just walking, alongside the specky guy.


She saw couples walking, laughing, holding hands.


Why are these people so happy?

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Can I ever feel that way again?

Why do I feel my chest getting heavy?
I can't breathe..


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"Elina? Are you okay?"

Elina looked up.

Her eyes watery, and tears started to stream down her cheeks.


"Why are you crying? Is there something I did wrong?"


She smiled, a forced one, and again turned her head from side to side.


The specky guy took out a packets of tissue from his pocket, and handed it to her.



"No, it's okay" she said, and wiper her tears off her face with her hands.

There was black ink smeared over her hands.


Shit... my mascara is smearing up..



"Urm, if you're not feeling well, we could just see this movie another day."


Elina proceeded to turn her head from side to side again.


However, her tears seem to flow more. She was crying harder than before.


"It's up to you. What do you want to do now?" the specky guy asked.



Elina looked up, and stared at the specky guy straight in his face.